Friday, December 25, 2015
Friday, November 20, 2015
Now, now I find myself at home. I find myself watching tv, reading, cleaning house and watching more tv on Friday nights, all nights actually. I receive invitations to go out but I just don't want to go. Before you start thinking I am depressed, or getting ready to jump off the bridge, don't worry. I have thought about this and conclude that over my 20 years with Camillo, 10 years in Brasil and in these last 3 years alone, I have just changed. Call it maturity or even old age, but what I want to do is read and write, and paint furniture and to make my house a home, spend time with my family and with friends that matter. The bright lights and noise of a club is no longer what I want. And its okay.
Friday, October 9, 2015
I don’t know what happened to my first post. I put it online right after midnight on the 9th, and then started playing with the blog layout; adding gadgets and such. Then I went to bed around 1:00 am. I came over here to see how the new gadgets were working in mid-afternoon, and NOTHING except the photo. It might not have been the best post I have ever written, very likely it was a little stiff, but I was proud that after 18 months of silence I’d finally picked up my pen again. I am sorry; to those that might have come by for a visit, please know I will try again to write something similar. All those that know me, know I write off the top of my head often leaving out words and making you suffer through misspells and typos as my thoughts flow faster than I am able to type, so recreating equal is next to impossible for me. But I will try.
I write again: Today (the 9th) is the 3 anniversary of Camillo’s death. I have had moments of sadness, and moment of gladness, but through the past 3 years I have not been writing nor taking photos. Now I will try again to start noting my thoughts; sending them out into cyberspace; hoping to share with you the process, the ups and downs, and the gradual acceptance that happens with time. (only the first sentence is like the first post – I go with my flow and will catch the other ideas over time).
I am hoping that my thoughts will move very quickly from the past 3 years and into thoughts and feeling of now, and plans for the future. If I sound stuck, tell me. prod and poke and question until I move myself forward and this blogs morphs into something we can all enjoy.
Write to me. I look forward to your thoughts.